A Course in Miracles has been a part of my life for going on 4 months now. I honestly don’t know why it took me so many years to find this divine text. But I know that I am ready for it now. To listen. To surrender.
A dense text that takes thoughtful study, once explained by a skillful teacher (I’m thinking of Marianne Williamson here) it begins to flow more and more.
A Course in Miracles
I’ve talked before, both here in blog posts about A Course in Miracles and on the Wednesday ACIM podcast days) about the core concepts from the text. Ego is perception, distortion, separation from God. And unfortunately that is how most of us operate. Love is God is knowledge is truth – is all there is.
There is no real explanation, that I’ve read thus far in the text, that explains why we even have egos, how they were created or their real purpose – particularly when the ego is always described as being separate from God and leading us astray. But maybe that is its purpose, in that from it, we have free will. I don’t know.
Part of studying ACIM is me saying… I don’t know. But I’m surrendering to the knowledge of God more and more everyday.
I study spirituality. I study universal laws (and yes, that includes acceptance of law of attraction-type beliefs). I believe concepts like, “Whatever we think about and thank about, we bring about.” Gratitude is a huge part of my life.
I endeavor to be better everyday. To be kinder, more full of understanding and love.
I also study visualization techniques and manifesting. I believe we are energy and that much of the world we live in is directed by the unseen.
I don’t have all the answers. It’s a relief to not have to pretend that I do.
I’m human and I, too, get caught up sometimes in striving, in hustle, in sheer force. (Read Power vs Force here) In attachment to specific outcomes, in becoming emotionally triggered and emotionally hijacked.
So it becomes even more important to me, to continue my study. I’ll be honest, even though I was raised in a traditional church, I often struggled with the bible. I think many of us do.
The sheer wording of the text makes it difficult to ascertain the real meaning… plus the parables seem incomprehensible at times. Parting the sea? Raising the dead? Was I supposed to take it all literally? There were scary parts too, and as a child, I think I feared God a bit and felt sinful. There were so many concepts that, as I grew older, just didn’t align with what I believed about the world. How could one religion be the only way to heaven?
Wow – I guess I could write a book about the topic of understanding the bible. This doesn’t even scratch the surface. I have respect for the bible and for my father and grandfather who were both ministers.
But, in my mind, something was missing or misinterpreted from the teachings. I believe in Jesus. But when he says that he is the way, the truth and the light and that no man cometh to the father but through him, I honestly don’t think Jesus meant to worship him in the way that most religions teach. In my understanding, Jesus was teaching us how to be. And it’s his teachings – about how powerful we are that are most impactful to me.
All of this to say that A Course in Miracles is helping me to more fully understand Jesus and the God, and the nature of our reality.
Other teachers have helped me along this path too, including Neale Donald Walsch, author of Conversations with God and Abraham Hicks and Michael Bernard Beckwith and loads of others, who I believe, get that spirit and love and the meaning of life are within and outside of church walls and traditional religious texts.
Tonight, at nearly 39 weeks pregnant, and with a touch of pregnancy insomnia, I took the opportunity to listen to Marianne Williamson talk about How to Place the Future in the Hands of God. It’s such a beautiful message and I’m letting it sink in. The video is over an hour long and I’m not quite through it yet. Honestly, she (and ACIM) give so much to ponder, that I tend to need to take it in short chunks to really let it seep in.
I’ve been led by inspiration to create this site (The Truth About Living), and most days it feels I am aligned with its purpose and aligned with Source. But I’ve also dedicated myself to the study of vision, manifesting and creating what you want in this life.
Now, I’m no fool. I know very well that manifesting and creating through visualization is not just ME acting and magically making good things appear in my life. I know there is a co-creation taking place with God, and that ultimately God is the pilot of this trip.
Jim Rohn talks about the man who took a rock pile of a plot of dirt, and worked to turn it into the most beautiful flower garden around.
He planted, he tended, he nurtured, he worked. People came from all over to see this gorgeous garden. As people were commented and complimenting him for his talents and his accomplishment, one man remarked that it was really God who was in control of nature and God who therefore made the flower garden. (rather taking credit away from the gardener) The gardener responded that well, yes, it was true God had a hand in it and he was grateful. “But,” as he said, “you should have seen it when God had it all to himself.”
Of course the meaning here is that yes, God does provide. He provides the soil, the seed, the water, the sunshine, the miracle of life – that a seed naturally knows how, with some divine intelligence we cannot quite understand, to grow into a beautiful flower. But it is the hand of man that is able to use his free will to work through inspired action to create something beautiful from what God has granted us.
And so, that’s where I am right now. Trying to make sense of this balance of desiring, wanting to have/do/be, achieving with a sense of surrender to God.
We cannot work super hard to teach or tell or direct the seed how to grow. That is God’s job. We cannot make it rain. That is God’s job. We did not invent the soil. That was God’s work.
So what then is our role?
Our role must be then to create a vision for our garden. To imagine the fullest, most beautiful blooms and blossoms. To sense the aroma, the see the colors and textures. To feel the love for our gardens and see them in our mind’s eye before the first sprout even appears from the dirt.
Our role must be to plant the seeds in good faith, with good work (proper tending and nourishment) and to have faith that the garden is forthcoming. Not to dig the seed back up again after a few days because you don’t see anything happening yet on the surface. Not to give into doubts.
Our role is to relinquish control after planting and tending. To walk side by side in action and surrender.
I place the future in the hands of God
To acknowledge then that through our good work, it is really and truly left with God to do the magical action of demonstrating the prosperity of life. That we must surrender to it. That we must place the future in the hands of God. All fears, doubts, anxieties and distortions of the ego fall away.
When we walk with the full knowledge that we are supported at every step in the process, there is relief. There can be peace. There can be joy.
We forget the spiritual support we have naturally through the grace of God because of the ego. Because the ego (which is separate from God) tries to convince us that it is through our actions, through our bodies, through our hands that we must strategize, we must formulate, we must strive, we must make things happen.
Yet when we fully connect with our Divine Creator and our own presence, these actions are easily flowed through and from our physical actions in a way that best serves us and others.
So, how do we connect with our Divine Creator and our own presence? For me, it comes through a lot of ways.
Reflection, study, prayer, meditation, walks in nature, helping others, laughter, joy, yoga, mindfulness and connecting with the present moment…
What helps you tap into your own spirit? When do you feel most connected?
How do we simultaneously align our vision and goals ( X amount of income a month, or 6 new clients this month, or that vacation to Hawaii next summer) with this idea that we need to surrender the future to God?
I fully believe we are meant to prosper. And I fully believe that the lives we live are not pre-determined.
In a recent podcast episode (Episode #82 How to Find Your Purpose) I talk about how there is no one right thing that we are pre-destined to come here to do. That the universe is simply waiting to hear from us… What do you want to do most?? What do you love?? And then, let’s go for it.
And when we remove societal conditioning and just accept what we most love, our purpose flows. We get to choose.
Therefore, I believe we are granted access to this amazing work of intelligence, art or divine machinery called our imagination. And through visualization (and other techniques) we can create these beautiful landscapes in our minds of how we would most love to be.
We can visualize our new car, a thriving relationship, a new baby, a new job, money coming to us, whatever we wish – because we are supported in this life and meant to only ask to receive.
It is not egotistic to want to thrive. It is not greedy to want more than you have. Growth and the desire for more in life are intensely natural. When we deny the desire for more or for growth, we are squashing or tamping down our natural instincts. We are closing ourselves off from abundance. We feel bad. (And that’s a sign right there!)
Greed is based on gaining more from others and at the expense of others through immoral means. Desire is based on natural tendencies towards growth. The entire universe is based on expansion. As they say…. the grass doesn’t strain to grow. It occurs naturally.
You are supported.
Find that balance between creating your ideals. Create in your mind’s eye that which you would most love. Believe you can have it. Then leave it ‘at the feet of Jesus’ or ‘place the future in the hands of God’.
When you set your intention, ask for that particular thing or better. Do not place limits on God. Do not say that your happiness depends on owning a RV so you can travel cross country or a yellow Porsche. Do not say your happiness depends on writing a best selling book or an interview with Oprah. Do not attach your happiness to a specific thing or outcome. Be happy now and the beautiful things you so desire will appear.
Simply say, among my desires for prosperity dear Lord, I would love this ….xyz…. in my life or better. You know best how to fulfill my highest needs and desires. I cannot always know what is in my best interest, but you do Lord. Therefore I come to you with these desires, knowing that I simply need ask and believe and they are mine. But also that there is true surrender to your divine creation. I know that I am ultimately and fully supported in this life when I only connect with spirit, love, faith and trust. I thank you Divine Creator for giving me this prosperous life. I thank you.
In highest gratitude for your presence here,