In my private Facebook group, I recently shared a pretty momentous decision I had to make about how I’ll spend the next 2 years of my life. I’ll share my original post below in a moment. But before I do, here’s the backstory.
Nearly 4 years ago, I discovered the wonderful world of online business, passive income and the elusive but very real 4-hour work week.
All of that learning and discovery led me to many projects (article writing, Kindle publishing, coaching, just to name a few).
Way led onto way, and I became aware of the profitability and flexibility of working online as an Amazon seller. I took an intensive training, put my money where my faith was, and purchased inventory for private labeling.
A year into learning about online revenue, I had launched my first Amazon product. And…. it was a success. Before long I had replaced my previous working salary, which meant I didn’t have to go back to traditional employment, and could continue being a devoted stay at home mom during the day and a rock star online entrepreneur at night.
While this excited me, thrilled me, actually, the path of an entrepreneur is never a straight upward line. I had my share of challenges but I had immense learning and growth as a person, as a business owner, as a leader, as an entrepreneur.
However, a few years into this lifestyle, and having made tremendous strides in personal and spiritual growth and amazing lifelong friendships with success driven entrepreneurs, I was feeling a need for a change.
First the need came on slowly… I was slightly terrified of letting go of my main source of income to pursue something else. I started a side project (The Radiant Mompreneur) which ultimately became a money pit and a big failure. But again, I learned – oh boy, did I learn.
I’d hired a business coach during that time as well. The value of coaching cannot be overstated. Love my coach.
Bit by bit I began to get comfortable with the idea of letting Amazon go. It had not, in fact, made me a millionaire, as I’d seen happen with some peers. Yet, knowing the true backstory of most success stories, I knew that if I continued with it (burning desire, faith, persistence), I had all the right trainings, all the right friends, supplier connections, knowledge, skills, and with just a bit more learning and a bit more fill-in-the-blank, I could indeed become an Amazon millionaire.
But I was tired. My heart was falling out of love with the business more and more. Now, some people would say a business isn’t meant to be emotional. In fact, that is the main refrain coming from the Amazon coach I spoke with recently and the person whom I reference in this letter I’ll share in a moment.
But it was more than just falling out of love with the business. In my body I could feel something that is hard to describe. But it was like a truly palpable -nooooo- every time I would think about the work associated with growing that business. Product selection, ranking software, PPC/Ads, negotiating with suppliers in China, ordering samples, barcodes, packaging, photo editing, copywriting, reviews, giveaways, email marketing, etc, etc, etc, etc, etc.
What had once been completely thrilling was now coursing through my veins in a big fat NO. No more. The learning I needed from that experience was done, finito.
In his view (Robert, the millionaire Amazon coach), business should be entirely unemotional. (Though he admitted he found it fun.) And Amazon, or any other business, is simply a vehicle. It is simply a means. And I could/should continue investing (time, money, energy) in Amazon training, coaches, products, events, software, etc.
Get your revenue stream solid with Amazon while you pursue your ‘hobby’. Well, coaching is not a hobby. My podcast is not a hobby. This blog is not a hobby. It is my purpose. And that makes it a very, very different thing entirely.
Letting go of Amazon has been a big deal. I’ve sold it off, bit by bit, month by month. And disengaging from it has been both scary and an absolute relief.
When I spoke with Robert (millionaire Amazon coach) recently, he was so convincing in his conversation with me that I spent several days feeling conflicted over what to do next.
Could I run two businesses at the same time and part-time at that… while being a full-time mom?? How much would The Truth About Living suffer in terms of growth if I took Amazon back up again? How questions were left and right. And yet, if I told him no, I was really putting a firm stake in the ground saying, “I am done with Amazon. I am 100% committed to building The Truth about Living.”
It meant walking in absolute faith.
After 4 days of contemplation, this is the email I sent to him with my answer:
Since you were kind enough to spend 3.5 hours with me on the phone the other night, I wanted to extend an email to you with explanation, in case you’d like to know.
I’ve decided not to pursue Amazon at this time.
The phone call with you, in all honesty, really through me for a loop. I’ve spent the last 6+ months disengaging from Amazon for a variety of reasons. I’ve felt so connected to my purpose, to my audience, to my clients, to my work – which flows so effortlessly. And finances have come into place every single time to allow me to do this work.
Your success with Amazon and what you teach is incredibly, incredibly tempting. Everyone wants to create ‘easy’ wealth. And you certainly have the chops to prove it can be done with your help.
But you also said, in truth, I should know my answer within 24 hours, and I did. It was a whole-hearted ‘NO’ for several reasons. But mostly because of what I felt right down in my bones.
My intuition, my inner guidance, my whole body resounded with no. Yet, my ego, my logic, my pride all wanted to be smart, rational and to do the ‘right’ thing. So, I couldn’t just say no that easily.
I spent the entire weekend feeling conflicted. I talked to my husband. I talked to Norman. I meditated. I prayed. We talked about finances, work schedules and more.
By Sunday I was feeling a little crazed, stressed and altogether – not good.
I’ve been studying a Course in Miracles. It talks about how we have the opportunity at every moment to choose love or fear. I completely understand your input that Amazon is simply a vehicle that would allow financial stability for my family, while I pursued my passion. I get that.
But if I did Amazon for the next 1-2 years of my life, I would be choosing it out of fear. Pride in finally ‘making it’ on Amazon. Fear of not having enough by following my purpose. And more… it would be for the wrong reasons.
My life is so full and so rich. I would feel resentful having to sideline other things to make it big on Amazon. I would partly be doing to it prove that I could. And honestly, I don’t have to prove anything to anyone.
I know that transcending the mind, the ego, the self-talk, the 50 reasons why I should and 50 reasons why I shouldn’t, would be the answer. I had to feel the answer in my bones. And I did.
The answer absolutely courses through me. No.
And if I ignore that, and do it anyway, I don’t think the outcome would be favorable.
You are clearly smart, an incredibly successful entrepreneur, and an amazing business builder. I’m honored that you took time with me.
The one thing that has definitely come from this that is so helpful to me, is that I have incredible clarity around what I want to be doing with my life.
You asked, if I were to die in 12 months, what would I choose?
You thought the answer might be to work on an Amazon business for 12 months to provide financial stability.
It sounded ‘right’.
But I now know my answer and it’s different. I would increase my life insurance. And I would continue living every single day like I’m doing now.
I get to spend every single day of my life with my 5 year old and my 2 month old and husband. I get to live everyday like it’s Saturday. I get to touch the hearts and souls of thousands of people. I would get to leave a legacy that showing people love, kindness and understanding is the best work I could be doing with my life. And that shouldn’t be put on hold for another year or two or even 6 months.
It is my now.
Thank you again Robert for your incredible kindness. I hope our paths cross again some day. In the meantime, keep making those millionaire dreams come true. My success is inevitable because I’m leading from my heart in a way I never have before, and it makes all the difference in my life today.
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Now, that email took some faith. And I walk it and live it and breathe it every single day.
As far as becoming a millionaire goes, there are a million ways to make a million dollars.
And I’m making it my personal mission to serve a million people, which means wealth is as easy as pie. It’s all about service.
During those days when I’m not sure, when I doubt, or when I get overwhelmed, I have to reconnect with my faith.
I hired an intuitive business coach. Yes, I am a coach and I always put my money where my mouth is. Coaching is VALUABLE. I love her. In one of our sessions, she pulled some oracle cards for me. Now, I don’t know much about oracle cards but I was excited to see what they said.
And here is what the card for my N-O-W read. It is almost chilling in how spot on it feels.
“There is a deep knowing in your heart that is calling to be expressed. This soul-knowing is aching for acknowledgement. It is your job now to spend time with this inner knowing. Familiarize yourself with this energy.
Allow the flow of visual impressions, direction and guidance to permeate your being so that you may bring to life a divine expression in service to yourself and others.
Trust that this soul knowing is aligned to your highest good.
From your first awareness to now, you have been cultivating a growing resonate energy and dynamic momentum that is ready to be actioned.
Fear is a natural element of vulnerable expression and soul exposure. Forge ahead bravely and break through any old stories or self-imposed limitations. You are being encouraged to enjoy the fresh sensation of blind trust and faith awakening all of your senses.
This is a time of accelerated growth and soul ascension. Take whatever steps you are being intuitively prompted to take to heal, restore and activate you and important life contracts.
A wonderful unfurling begins.”
I can’t think of a more beautiful way to lead into this next phase of life. A wonderful unfurling begins. That is chill bump material.
And this is how I…
Walk in faith… again and again
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